backstabbing

OMG!!!

I didn't know backstabbing is so much fun can!! stab stab stab.. stab stab.. yYEEAAHHH!!!!!!
*\^O^/*!!!

I'm not a sports person much. My definition of sports is dancing and walking around shopping/to work.

come on, I only watch football once every four years.. yes u guessed it.. during world cup lor.. but I might watch euro 2008 finals la since right that day during the quarter finals (spain n italy i think) i'm sittin nicely n happily watchin a jap drama on my earphones.. earphones ok??

well ok i left my window open but thats besides the point.. i think the whole of madrid just screamed at the same moment.. i can hear lor these crazy people screamin from dunno how many blocks away even though i'm watchin the show w my earphones.. no need watch tv also know who won..

but anyway back to my point.. I think i found a sports i rather like lor..

somemore its one of the world's most cruel sports...

niabeh kamzing thinks she likes bullfighting can!!



WAH SO EXCITING!! I.... WANNA watch aGAIN!

before the stabbing starts..

when they let the bull out at first its like super excited like that so hyper.. then it prance around charging at the stupid waving cloth.. (its colour blind la ok so red is to tipu u wan..)

nyeh nyeh nyeh.. hide behind this wall u cannot see me..!

then it prance prance prance w a few ppl irritatin it w the cloth... so the bull gets kinda tired.. then these 2 dudes on horses comes out w a spear thingy.. n.. they STAB IT ON DA BACk!!

actually i felt more pity for the damn horse than the bull..

I'M NOT MEAN LA OK? (although i like this sport i think god just noted a whole page on my evilness liao..)

hey the horse kena blind folded lor k? then sure everytime the bull come chargin (so that the guy on the horse can backstab it) the horse kena DUSH on the side.. then the bull keep raming into it.. dush dush dush!!! but got protection la ok... play safe wan these ppl.. but still ah.. imagine i farkin blind fold u then i put u in the center n shove u around wat will u think??

niabeh wat these ppl doing to mee.. weiiiii sakitnya cibai wat this stupid thingy keep banging me on the side?!?!!

horse: wat happen wat happen??

anyway bullfightin is more than just an idiot wavin the red cloth at the bull ya..

so its goes on after a while the horse ppl leave then the kelefes (sidekick ppl la..) take this... thingy i dunno wat.. then they stick it on the bull's back.. see backstab again.. oohhh..
then u see the wonderful nice bathe of crimson from the bull's back... waaahhhh ss seh..

fat bull...!

so finally after all the stab stab so they bull is weaken already from the blood loss the fighter come out.. wave wave more.. the closer the bull the more syok it is la.. wwoooo!!! hampir mampus the fighter i think lagi syok.. so anyway long long story cut short finally the fighter think he weak enuh then he take his sword thingy.... nnnnnnn sSSSSSSTTTTAAAABBBBB!!!!!

right down the neck into the heart..!

MAMPUS DIA MAMPPUUSSS!!!

kua kua kua!! mampused u see?

actually the ending quite evil la.. when the bull dushed on the floor already one of the kelefes will take a.. dagger i think.. stab stab the head.. then he like korek korek the head w the dagger.. (WTF KAM SUMMORE SAY U LIKE AH??)

tthheenn come la the ending part the bunch of ... donkeys i think come out.. hook the bull w a string to the bunch (3) donkeys then kena drag out to be.. ( i dunno la be wat.. mince meat myb? or daddy said got bull ball soup.. hahahaa) anyway end of story la..

okie tonight got bull ball soup!

*CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP!!****

happy spectator of mass murders..

It was a total of 6 rounds all together..

3 competitors each person 2 rounds.. in the start the stadium was so packed!!

their seats are like.. well.. its not seats really its liks cement stairs style if u get my drift..


oh i felt like a sardine in the canning proccess.. SO HOT LOR.. summore so tight!!

and I felt really really annoyed I almost wanted to shout at this girl behind me..

Annoying girl: Omg thats not fair..! its like 5 against 1 bull..

Assumingly the boyfriend: something something

after 5 minutes

Annoying girl: why don't they take the things out from the back?? its bleeding so much!! blabalalablablaa

OMg look at that!! so unfair thats not fair play!!

omg this omg that omg this omg that..

EH KNN!!

take wat out wat wat fair now ha?? the motive is to bloody murder the kerbau ok??

sibeh tulan she so noisy complain this complain that so much blood.. cannot tahan dun see la..

thank god she left after the 3rd or 4th round... EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

anyway after like the 2 or 3rd round more n more people left I could sit like a sardine out of the can.. ahhh can cross my legs summore after that...

well if you are those who r like me w wire loose u should watch bullfightin!! ahahhaah

(i'm not the only one alright?? got this aunty sit behind me hair in bun and dress like those ah soh that will spank u if u said a bad word.. she say ITS SO FUN!)

so i'm not commiting a sin. ahhaha.

cheerio!

this is for you

Words.

For once i felt that Words, even words cannot express how i truly feel inside.

My words can't express how truly sorry I am how things have turned out and how I just hate how suddenly things just became the way they were. Because words, have failed me in convincing you.


I know. I promised. But, I lied. I care about you too much.

What magic did you put on me to have held me in your grasp for the last almost 2 years?

I know you r not mine and i, from what I see now, hold not of any significance importance to you.

I know that I have said I will let you be. But its killing me inside. That everytime I see you popping up or just seeing you listed under online, the urge is so hard to fight. To stop myself from chatting with you. When it used to be, talking to you makes my entire day go right.

Now you are not there to encourage me.

And yet I think back of when your words have helped me through one of the toughest time I have faced.

Yes, Words have failed me so badly this time.

What can I say?

I miss you so much and still missing you.

Despite the fact that you are so many miles away from me.

I know that I am materialistic in many ways but that is a part of me that many people don't understand me.

Wealth my dear, is indeed something I am after. But it is something, I want to be truly mine.
It is what I want to say as something I have possessed by my own hands. What is yours, really I do not want it.

Which truly that part of me being materialistic, is someone who has a reputation to match with. I am more complicated that people think, and even those who knows me so well, never truly know everything about me.

If there is something that I am rather good at, is to hide my emotions.

No, I think I will rephrase that because that first week not only it was hell for me but I was so moody it became hell for many too.

I have supressed my feelings so much in the last years that nowadays I feel like...

I no longer really feel.

At every consience I tell myself that its nothing but the last few weeks,

in the silence of my own solitude I am making good frens with mr alcohol.

courtesy of mr daddy

Mr alcohol told me I should cry and he reminded me of some feelings I can't feel when he is not accompanying me.

But what I want is to make friends with mr alcohol and be happy.

And sorry would not even justify it that I could not be by your side or at the very least be emotionally there when I found out you were involded in an accident. And to find out 2 days later just because we are in a fight.

I hope you get well soon.

You are always in mind. Always there always will be.

I am, waiting for you to forgive me.

I am sorry.